These days...

I seem to think about how all the changes came about my ways
I had almost forgotten that I owned this piece of furniture:

the last, the very last of my unwanted possessions. It's an antique buffet with a glass display cabinet built into it. To be honest I don't know why this was purchased back in 2002 or so. If ever there were lost years they were 1/2000 to 12/2003.

Until December 2003 I really had no clue what I was doing or where I was going or what I wanted on so many levels. I bought so much crap seemingly without thinking during that time. It was definitely a symptom. I found myself not wanting any of it later. Hence my talk of purging and living more simply these past five years. I don't know the person who wanted those things. There is such a relief to be here now and not back there. I am thankful for all the changes that brought me here.

The new studio has me confronting some old possessions. This buffet cannot belong to me anymore, it makes no sense. Of all the things I purchased during that time, this is the one piece that clearly reminds me of those unhappy and confused times. It has been in a storage unit since March 2004. It's weird to feel this way about something and then sell it. Ick, it's like selling a person my bad memories. So, what to do? Even giving it away....anyone want my old, ugly stuff from back there? I wonder who's bad memories I have picked up or bought along the way. These days I need less because I found more one evening while on a walk with a friend, taking in the lights and sharing some whiskey.

I'll stop my rambling, teehee.